Sunday, February 16, 2014

Happy Sunday! I'm actually writing this from my bed. Still under the covers! Lol. I'm about to get up, drink me a large cup of Java and hit the pavement.  I'm training for the Color Run in Nashville in a month and a half. I can barely walk lately due to nerve pain in my back/hip bug I refuse to let that stop me... I plan to eat some Advil and keep it moving:).  I'm excited to see if u can actually complete this! It's my first actual challenge to myself in a long time to be honest. I'm feeling good about it though and on March 29th I'm gonna get er done. 😉.  Gotta get moving. Hope everyone has a fabulous sunny Sunday! More later.

Sunday, February 09, 2014

Shifting gears and changing direction!

Decided to get back on here and resurrect my blog.  Took an act of GOD to reset my password but finally it prevailed.  After reading this whole blog through again I realized a few things. One, I was totally immature even at the ripe ol age of 35. Two, I have no where near the bubbly attitude you see on here previously these days. And three, I plan to be more REAL on here now than ever. My blog, my right huh? In spite of all that I still love to laugh, still have my stressful, crummy, but I get a reliable pay check every two weeks job, and still deal with everyday stressors of life in general.  However, the older I get the more my "give a damn" gets busted. Funny how stuff like that happens huh? :) My filter has somewhat evaporated over the years I do believe. But I am also finding out that you can't go through life all sour and mad at the world or you only hurt yourself.  Everyday that we wake up on this side of the ground is one more day that we are granted GOD's mercy and grace and it's up to us how we put that to use.  I have every reason in the world to "choose" to be a Debbie Downer because clearly my adult life has not gone according to plan (MY plan of course). However, my plan and GOD's plan obviously did line up. Therefore my famous last words apply here when I say "it is what it is" and I suck it up, and keep it moving. :) :) 

I'm now 41 years old and I'm everything BUT "classy and fabulous".  I think "fat, broke and hormonally imbalanced" describes me a whole lot better but I refuse to name my blog page that 😜. 

So after much thought and soul searching I've decided that I want to make this page more about a "healthy lifestyle" journey than a "therapy" page as I was doing in 2009. It needs a purpose and frankly so do I I believe.  Some things in life are out of our control and those things we just can't change. BUT things that we CAN change, those are things that empower us. Those are the things that should get your energy and focus, not all the other jazz that is out of your control.  

For most of my adult life I've struggled with my weight. I'm a "vertically challenged" person (I'm only 4'11) therefore 5lbs look like 40 on me. I'm also an ex smoker and nicotine is one of the best diets ever, but it also comes with a little sidebar like cancer that kinda kills that high of smoking.  So here I am, dealing with ALL these emotional things that hinder and effect my metabolism but I refuse to let it defeat me.  I get to "make a choice" everyday that I wake up so I'm going to choose happy, choose healthy, and choose positive and the rest I believe will fall in line.  This blog will definitely be my outlet but I also want to make it as positive and encouraging as possible.  I hope to gain followers and share their pages, stories and successes as well.  Maybe I'll also change my blog name in the future but for now I'm keeping it....  Even though I'm realistic in my my old age, that classy and fabulous still applies to my mentality if nothing else 😉 

So welcome back to me! This should be interesting.